I hate my tummy sometimes. True story. It has given me trouble for years. Sometimes it is upset. Sometimes I am nauseous. Sometimes it feels like it has to growl but can’t. Sometimes I feel constantly hungry even when I eat. I never have any issues with actually throwing up-unless I am actually sick, which is rare-but I do have days when I feel so queasy I spend most of the day gagging, like I could throw up but it doesn’t happen.
Medical professionals call it nervous stomach, and that is probably true. I have severe anxiety and OCD. I have PTSD. I am constantly nervous, worried, or just plan uptight. My PMS is severe both emotionally and physically because I also suffer from endometriosis. Right now I am having PMS and I am feeling down and my tummy feels bloated. It is an endless cycle.
The only thing that really helps is taking antacids, eating yogurt, and going for walks. I am also not very happy at either of my jobs right now, and my medical coding teacher sent me an email that was annoying, and my bff is sick, and a girl at work likes me and I am not sure what to do. All of these things are making my tummy act up.
I just want one day when I can truly not have to worry about anything. Is that too much to ask? Maybe I would feel better if I went camping or something. Getting out in nature certainly helps, but seriously who has the time? I am really just ready to say; “Fuck it”. That is terrible but I am seriously stressed and it is to that point.